when...

i have no idea since when, i m beginning to hate socialize with new peoples. sometimes they just don fit to my life, or in the other way is me who don fit into their life circle. i hate the feeling of feeling uncomfortable with some1 else, yes we did spend time together like most of the time but still i can feel that the connection between us is just WEIRD. but i cant find any specify reason to don like the new peoples i met. ( maybe that some1 did touch something i don like, such as being a Faker, keep presenting just to make me look like an idiot, big mouth bout the little secret we shared, bossing me to help up just to show how capable she is, etc...)i dunno how to say nice when is really not tat nice....if u r not happy with that, i cant do anything!!when u dunno anything just don pretend that u know everything, it is just not so right!! if u r a genius then u r, please stop boasting bout that!!i hate it when u r facing the guy u like, n u ll betray me, like i mean nothing to u just to impress him..is so DAMN !!i m really SICK of it~

i miss sticking with my old bunches of frens that know me so well & thought i don spend much time with them, they r irreplaceable.

i m starting to feel that i really don belonged here...or anyway!! i cant feel tat some particular person is really connected to me here, guess human being r selfish! they ll always make their own need & desire the 1st priority, who will really spend the entire time thinking wat's the best for some1 who will be just a passerby in few year times.

or maybe is me who disconnect all this possible connection peoples in my life which i know they will be some1 passerby in my life few years ahead!!


some how i miss my family, mr tong, my frens back in hometown & those i used to hang out with more & more...!! cause i know, they r some1 who is fit into my life circle no matter who i am~

i miss my little bro, the way he hugged me tightly in his small arms like i am his whole world~

Angel's heart
this is the 54 days, & i am couting down my days...